I was informed on a live international radio show that I smelled bad! I was beat down for about 5 minutes on the fact that I was a stinky mcstinkerston. Im used to being the person giving the beatdowns and this time I was helpless, I just sat there and listened to Manson and Spice and Ned and Bubba tear me down. I felt like such a dirt bag. Im a grown man and I felt like the stinky kid and for good reason, I do! I have for a long time and been told by the people that love me but, it took those four assholes for me to listen. My girls have told me they they were stinky because of me. Yet I refused to listen I didnt care that the people that I love the most were hurting because of me. Yet it took these four homos busting my balls for me to care.
Now I dont know how pathetic that makes me but, Im guessing its up there. I have tried everything to quit smoking and tried a thousand times and when it comes down to it its lack of will power. I have over come many things without even thinking about it but, smoking has been that ball and chain that I could just not break free from.
I guess its all excuses as to why I dont quit. Bad day, my boss stressed me out, the kids were not being good, money trouble, girlfriends bitching, wifes bitching, girlfriend friends bitching about my wife, wifes bitching about my girlfriend. I think you get the point. there is an excuse everytime. Everytime I find a reason to light up another one. I find reasons to fail and convince myself that it is ok because of the " problem " I had that day.
Im laughing right now because Im so pathetic. I am never going to smoke again after I finish this blog and that is a promise. at this point ive been writing for an hour and three minutes... lol
So this world is my promise. From now on I will only smell like ass, feet and ball cheese. Never again will I smell like a dirty ashtray.
I dont care what happens tomorrow. Nothing will get the best of me I will never make up another reason to smoke... 1 hour 24min... out
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